From being told that she could never have babies and facing devastating loss-including the stillbirth of her long-awaited son, this mother’s story is a testament to pain, purpose, and divine timing. For anyone going through a tough time, her words are a lighthouse!
A Rainbow baby, is a baby born after a miscarriage, stillbirth, ectopic pregnancy, TFMR or the death of an infant.
Most people don’t know my journey to motherhood for it’s heart wrenching and brings up such grief in me to this day! So bare with me as I share my story with you all!
I was told at the age of 15 that I would never be able to have children without assistance from the medical field! I had horrific periods when I had them but the reality is I had them a few times a year, I had poly cystic ovaries and had a surgery at 15 to remove the cysts!
They put me on pharma€euticals and birth control and boy if i only knew what i know now i would have never taken a one for they cause health issues! My only deep desire in life was to be a mother! Being an adult who has researched everything now, I was Maxine injured from my childhood Maxines along with the fluoride swishes at a school they were giving us and fluoride in our water those toxins harmed my body and caused my health issues and the medicines they prescribed (birth control and metformin diabetic meds) I had no clue nor did my mother for she was following the indoctrination system of health!! We can not inject toxins and think they will not cause our babies harm sometime in their lives! Fluoride is horrendous yall! A massive cause of infertility!
I married a man from our church and we tried for years to conceived and did years of infertility drugs! I finally gave up on the medical system way of doing things and quit fertility! If The Lord wanted me to have a biological child he’ll make it happen!
So, we became foster parents, took our classes to adopted and got blessed with two little girls same biological woman different biological men and we had them for 5 years with no visits from any parent or family! When their adoption came to be we were elated! I was their only Momma they were my pride & joys!
The week of our adoption a birth father came forward for one of our girls! I was devastated! We decided to fight to keep them together and it was the first time a non biological parent had won custody over a biological parent! A paramount case! I was elated God gave us favor!
I then found out I was pregnant NATURALLY!! I was going to be a birth mother too! Then I had a nightmare about my husband! I was elated about the baby God truly was blessing our little family with! My best friend Erika, was pregnant at the same time! Then the nightmare about my husband became our reality! I think God was preparing me in my dreams before it hit me! Our family was shattered! Our oldest went to live with total strangers and was separated from the only family she ever knew and I lost the child of my heart that I had raised for 5 years, I lost my husband, I lost my home, and at 24 weeks 6 months pregnant I lost the child I so longed for that had a heart beating his little life growing in my belly! I was beyond grief and devastation! My life forever changed and so was my childrens!
I’m not gonna lie i was angry at The Lord, couldn’t understand why! I was broken shattered truthfully! But GOD!!!!
Later down the road God chose me to conceive again and a rainbow baby was created! That pregnancy nearly killed me! I’ve fought to keep her alive from the moment of conception and still do to this day!
Lyndi Elaine Carnal is my rainbow baby! Thank you God for this child of ours that you’ve blessed me with and chose me to love and nurture and teach her about you!!
So, Please join me as we think of:
Our precious little ones who are no longer with us…. God has them walking the streets of gold running with the tame animals in heaven!
Our living children and what a blessing they are for God chose you to be their momma to raise them to know him!
Bereaved parents who chose not to have another baby after their loss, or who were sadly unable to conceive my heart hurts for you! May God give you peace and comfort!
Lets celebrate our rainbow babies, all the little children that changed our lives and brought so much joy after so much grief.
If you are struggling with female issues infertility let’s please connect you have to detox the toxins that have been injected into you! I’ve helped many now with infertility issues naturally have healthy babies!